Just in case you're ever wondering why it's hard for anyone suffering with chronic pain to pay attention to whatever you are talking about - this sums it up in a very very very simple way.
It's not personal. I just have no idea what you're talking about. And if I don't seem empathetic or sympathetic to a problem of yours, it's because I simply can't wrap my head around whatever you're talking about. What you have to understand is how extremely exhausting it is to be in almost crippling pain ALL. THE. TIME.
Have you ever broken your shoulder? I wake up 95% of the time with that kind of pain in my right arm. It lasts for about half an hour before starting to "calm" down. What I'm left with is a pins and needles tingly feeling all up and down my arm, making my hands feel useless. It takes an extreme amount of effort to carry my cup of coffee. It's something I actually have to think about.
What you also must must must understand is that when I seem exceptionally upset about something that is not upsetting, chances are it's not just me overreacting. Chances are my brain hit a wall and can't compute - and I either can't make sense of what is upsetting me, or I can't move past it. It just gets stuck on repeat. I can't explain it. I know it sounds crazy.
It's not personal. I just have no idea what you're talking about. And if I don't seem empathetic or sympathetic to a problem of yours, it's because I simply can't wrap my head around whatever you're talking about. What you have to understand is how extremely exhausting it is to be in almost crippling pain ALL. THE. TIME.
Have you ever broken your shoulder? I wake up 95% of the time with that kind of pain in my right arm. It lasts for about half an hour before starting to "calm" down. What I'm left with is a pins and needles tingly feeling all up and down my arm, making my hands feel useless. It takes an extreme amount of effort to carry my cup of coffee. It's something I actually have to think about.
What you also must must must understand is that when I seem exceptionally upset about something that is not upsetting, chances are it's not just me overreacting. Chances are my brain hit a wall and can't compute - and I either can't make sense of what is upsetting me, or I can't move past it. It just gets stuck on repeat. I can't explain it. I know it sounds crazy.
So please, try to understand. If I lose my shit on you, it's not because I'm being a giant dick. I'm trying really really hard. Although, if you say something completely ridiculous, I can't blame MS for that - I lost my shit on you because you're being an idiot, and that's what friends are for.
xo
You're one of the most amazing people I know Christine and your strength is seriously something I admire the most. You're still you when I see you and I adore you even more each day for being such a lovely individual.
ReplyDeleteAwww, Jen. You're the best. Thanks so much.
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Thanks for this beautiful lady.
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